Welcome to the place in your mind where your own personal hell resides
It will most likely consume you in the best of times
that’s where the fear comes from
Love starts to become a poison you endure but being addicted to it isn’t so bad because then it becomes a self fulling award of pure selfishness
the kind that brings you joy
Hate is subsided out of anxiety of being unaccepted like everyone can hear you inside your head
Am I so different in the sea of complex ideologies
Simply a caged animal screaming and dying to get out
Smashing mirrors with my reflection and destroying every cherished thing that filled a certain void
Left in solitude with the kind of knowledge that surpasses anyone in ignorant bliss
The kind of knowledge people are afraid of
Here’s a taste: Nobody truly cares for you until you’re dead and after that you become a distant memory
I have a gravestone and it’s beautiful I have a casket and it’s beautiful both reflect the life I wish I could have lived
Sometimes I imagine the people I love the most destroying me so I don’t have to do it myself
They will walk with fire upon their skin and guns in their mouths
And I will wait for them to scream my name out of hatred and enjoy the sound
One of the best things about being expandable to other people is you always get to be the hero in some way or another
We follow our own perfect view of ourselves for the world to play dress up and go home with keys to sealed doors that lovingly wait for us to relish in our own personal disgust
Laying our sins with us to sleep and begin to regret them under thoughts we have of questioning our existence once again
A repeated process of unappreciative people who also feel they don’t deserve anything
We love to contradict ourselves it’s the gift we all give to ourselves and others and completely human to do so
Whatever we need to escape the reality of what we truly know we are
Welcome to the place in your mind where all of you resides